The crazy year

Well,
This year has been insane. I had my heart stomped on but some how found forgiveness. I finally have my temple recommend. School is going by without a hitch. I found happiness again without any guys. I became closer to my amazing mom. I lost some friends but somehow I am still alive. haha I gained my self worth and self esteem in check. I can honestly say, even though it has been quiet a difficult year emotionally, I survived... no, more than survived. I conquered and fought to make myself truely happy. I am just so happy being just me. And even though I am single, I am now a surviver and I am so happy where my life is going and where I am right now. My heavenly father really does have a plan for me and I am looking forward to living it. :)
Now my new years resolution:
1. actually go on a date
2. excersize five times a week for at least an hour.
3. End thearapy and anti depressents by my birthday ( May 30)
4. Go to church evey week (unless I am brutally sick. )
5. Last but not least, stay being happy and grow spiritually and mentally. :)

Build a bear

I took brennen to build a bear last night because he has never gone but he loves build a bear. So we get there and he picked out his really cute blue build a bear. Being two I was just waiting for him to go crazy around the store. He didn't. He stayed right by me and waited patiently for his turn to stuff it. when he got his bear stuffed, he washed it and brushed it with a huge smile on his face. Brennen then, picked out the cutest outfit for his build a bear. He picked out a car shirt and pants. He was literally jumping up and down with excitement. He had such a fun time and I am so grateful I have him in my life. He is the most selfless two year old I know and he has the best smile ever. I love you bremen. I hope when I have kids my two year olds we be loving and patient just like you.

I have had an amazing couple of days. I went to the temple to do baptisms for the dead last night with my singles ward. I loved it so much. I haven't been to the temple since I was fifteen. I felt so blessed to have the opportunity to go yesterday. I truly love the gospel and what it does for me. I am so blessed to have a temple so close to where I live that I can go anytime I want. I made a new goal for myself, to go to the temple at least once a month. Maybe more....

 

My little brother, Brennen, loves lights. When we are driving around and he sees any different lights on houses he says "pretty house." As a result, I had to take him to see temple square during Christmas time. We went tonight. I couldn't believe the look on his eyes when he saw the temple all light up and all the sculptures of Christ birth. He had to see "Baby Jesus" at least three times and just stare. I can't believe the spirit in such a small boy. He really taught me a lot tonight by his sheer amazingness of "Baby Jesus." I love him so much and I am so grateful I have him a a brother.