Ms. Looser

I don't know what to believe anymore. Why can't I serve the lord and go on a mission? Does he want me miserable here at my home for another two years? I hate school, I hate coming home, I lost my job, and the only time I can go anywhere is Sunday while I am at church. Isn't that pathetic, church is my fun. I feel like an old looser. I don't know why God gave me this plan. I am not strong enough for this. I can't even serve a mission because I am not strong enough to suck up my past relationship and move on with my craziness. I am just so sick of people telling me I can't when I have proved time and again I can do it.

Happy Aniversary to me

Last Tuesday was Brody and I's aniversary. I can't believe it has already been one year since we started dating. I really do love Brody and I can't wait for him to be home so we can spend our life and all eternity together. I am so proud of him and what he has accoplished in his life. He is the best guy I have ever met.

My poor missionary

I just found out yesterday that Brody hasn't received any of my letters. I feel awful. I can't believe he hasn't gotten any of them. I wonder how long it has last. I guess now I know why he hasn't sent me letters for awhile. What should I do? Maybe I am sending them to the wrong address. I sure hope he can get my next one and I get one this week. I am kind of going nuttier.