Complaining ( beware) lol

I just don't understand why I am not getting out on dates. I consider myself strong in the gospel, smart, and pretty. I really don't want to change anything about me. But I wish (since I haven't been out on a date in over a year now) that I could be asked out just once. Maybe I could take another institute class next semester will do the trick. But I am feeling kind of hopeless. I lost the perfect guy from my old thought process. I just wish guys would give me a chance. I just want to have a little fun in my life and I would love to get married if there is that special guy out there for me. It has just doubted myself a little bit on the things I know. It is just hard when people your age or even younger are either getting married or having a baby and I am not even out of my house yet. I want an husband and kids just so bad and I don't know if it is ever going to happen for me. :'(

Cinderella

A couple of days ago I went to see Cinderella the play with my little sister Mckenna and her girl scout troop. It was actually really fun. Though it was an amature play, the actors were awsome. The play was more like a musical though. There was lots of singing. But it was still really good.
I also registered for part of my classes for next semester. Because of all the crap that is going on in my life, I decided to take English instead of math. I also took a zoology class. I need to go get things fixed up at the college for next semester. I can't wait to get my classes in order and just finish my degree. I am so sick of school. I just want to teach finally.

Horray for cleaning!!!!!

so, this past week we have been deep cleaning our whole house. We repainted our bathroom (not the bright orange I wanted) but it looks so much better than that awful wallpaper. I cleaned up the storage room that is in between Sydnee and my rooms and I also bleached tile floor downstairs which would be the laundry room and the storage room. However, I burned myself and have this awful rash looking thing all over the place. I think they might be stress hives. I have them often. I also got a calling this week and my young single adults ward which is a visiting teaching coordinator. I am really excited about it. I took Addysen to build-a-bear for her birthday. She was so excited. We took the frontrunner and everything. I can't believe she is six now. It is funny, Addysen's birthday was one of the last birthday's Brody got to be at last year. Brody has almost been a missionary for a whole year now. I am so proud of him and the strength he has for doing everything and having the will power to do what he does. I am the luckiest person ever. I also need to go up to the school and figure out what happened to my human development grade. According to my records I got a D in that class and since I got an A on my final, it should be an A. I am really confused about that. Anyways, I get the whole week off of work next week because my family is doing the anual going to park city and other places I am not entirely sure what we are doing. I am so excited. I really, really need a break from everything and I am hoping this will help.

Chicago Illinois!!!!

Oh my heck! My brother is going to Chicago for his two year LDS mission! I am sooo happy for him. He has always wanted to go on a misson to Chicago. In fact, that is what he thought he was going to go. I am so proud of him for his sacrifice he his giving for the lord and our lost brothers and sisters. I am going ot miss him a lot but I know he is leaving for the right reasons. What is kind of cool is that if you make a straight line, Brysen's and Brody's mission is connected. It is amazing!

Thank you

I started my job this week. Yay!!!! I love working with Jamie and I love all the kids she watches. I am so grateful for this job and my previous job. I have learned to much and I cannot wait until I can do it myself. I am so blessed to have a wonderful missionary and wonderful people around me to purk me up when I am having an awful day, (thanks Ellie, Marrianne, and mom.) I am just so grateful for everybody who I have accepted into my life and stayed. Thank you all. :)

Ms. Looser

I don't know what to believe anymore. Why can't I serve the lord and go on a mission? Does he want me miserable here at my home for another two years? I hate school, I hate coming home, I lost my job, and the only time I can go anywhere is Sunday while I am at church. Isn't that pathetic, church is my fun. I feel like an old looser. I don't know why God gave me this plan. I am not strong enough for this. I can't even serve a mission because I am not strong enough to suck up my past relationship and move on with my craziness. I am just so sick of people telling me I can't when I have proved time and again I can do it.

Happy Aniversary to me

Last Tuesday was Brody and I's aniversary. I can't believe it has already been one year since we started dating. I really do love Brody and I can't wait for him to be home so we can spend our life and all eternity together. I am so proud of him and what he has accoplished in his life. He is the best guy I have ever met.